Have you ever sat home day after day writing? I know, most people probably think it would be great fun. I thought that way for awhile. But perhaps because I was doing it in rural New England, I found it more and more isolating. Should I get a job and do the writing at night and on weekends instead? I pondered more regularly.

I would listen to my life and watch for guidance.

Soon thereafter, I came across a job listing on the internet that really interested me. I thought: You can make a real difference with regard to something that is going to increasingly become a problem in our society.

I was certain this was no coincidence; I had been given a sign.

I applied for the position, and they called me in for an interview. Now I was quite certain this was meant to be.

One of the interview team wanted to discuss my career trajectory. Because she was a psychologist, it made sense to me. She’d obviously noticed that while I had started out on a high note, appearing to be a young woman going places, after some fifteen or so years, my career had gone in new directions. Why had I gotten off the path of that uphill climb?

What was I to say? You don’t go talking about jumping onto the spiritual path ay am interview, do you? I hadn’t been on one in a long time, but things hadn’t changed that much, had they?

I was talking to two friends afterwards. I explained how this interview didn’t go well. I mentioned that this team was not impressed that I had given up a solid career in the nonprofit arena, to go back and get a Ph.D.; to go and live abroad, working in the area of domestic violence prevention with the military in order to do so; to then sit at home and write two novels that hadn’t as yet sold; and of course, to develop an internet business in the self help arena despite the fact I knew next to nothing about developing a website or e-commerce.

One of my friends replied, “It didn’t make sense to them because they weren’t in the same place spiritually.”

Needless to say, I had suspected that at the interview. I had also suspected these women didn’t understand why I might suddenly profess to have passion about something, especially when there was nothing on my resume to suggest I’d ever had passion for it before.

Again, I couldn’t very well explain that walking the spiritual path isn’t always straight forward or simple. You sometimes feel guided to do something you never thought of before.

At that interview, I wanted to tell these women that I suddenly felt all my previous work had prepared me to go out there and make a difference in this arising new area of individual, family, and societal problems. And really, at my website, I was already dealing with some of the problems that veterans, those who allowed their Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) symptoms to go untreated, would undoubtedly face. Like the narcissistic I already discussed at my website, these veterans might turn to alcohol abuse and drug abuse to try and cope with their debilitating symptoms, rather than seek the help that was available to them that wasn’t there for the Vietnam veterans. Oh, and I dealt with emotional abuse and verbal abuse at my site, too. PTSD sufferers were apt to use these against wives and children, and might use physical abuse, too.

By the way, at that interview, I discussed the need to start building communities knowledgeable about PTSD, and how to be supportive to the veterans and their families. After all, supportive families and communities might minimize some of the stress that could trigger PTSD symptoms that might have lain dormant otherwise. Also, we already knew younger veterans were most susceptible to developing PTSD, but were least inclined to admit they had problems and to seek help. If there were people Knowledgeable about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder in the community, perhaps they could encourage these veterans to get help, too? This might mean the difference between symptoms that were effectively managed, versus those that became debilitating and ruined the lives of these men and women, created havoc for their families, and impacted communities negatively as well.

I evidentially proved I wasn’t a good fit for the position during the interview. I suspect they doubted I could spend my days writing articles focused purely upon the science, especially when I’d want to add commentary about how we, as concerned citizens, could help nip a potential problem in the bud.

I suspect God didn’t want me to get this job. Perhaps He only wanted me to get excited about working on educating people about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, as well as how they might support veterans and their families in their communities. Thus, we wouldn’t create the same tragic aftermath that permeated this country after to the Vietnam War.

I had my moments after that interview where I condemned myself for not having a traditional career path, one that most potential employers would understand and favor. But then I reminded myself I had gotten off that path to take another. Furthermore, I suspect that in some other way, I will soon be helping to have a positive impact on our veterans and their families. Yes, somehow I will also help to build supportive communities.

Right now, I’m not sure exactly how I will work with others to accomplish this. I suspect I am in the process of attracting partners and the means now, however. Soon, as I walk further down the spiritual path, it will become clearer.

But no, that isn’t the type of thing you can discuss at a job interview. So, perhaps I left some people shaking their heads and wondering.

And, quite frankly, sometimes it's painful, not being able to explain or justify my behavior. My ego rears it's ugly head and wnats to do exactly that. I guess God would tell me to let things be. Still, it isn't alayws easy.

Author's Bio: 

Diane England, Ph.D. has degrees in clinical social work, family studies, and child development. She has the education and professional credentials most would expect of am expert in the self-help field. But when she writes about his narcissism, addictions, and abuse and her recovery from codependency and other issues through spirituality and spiritual growth, she writes as a woman who has been there. Read a number of free articles on these topics and more at Dr. England’s website, www.NarcissismAddictionsAbuse.com.